CROSS MY HEART & HOPE FOR BETTER DAYS AHEAD, GET OUT OF THIS WEATHER, I'M NOT GETTING OVER IT, JUST GETTING USED TO THIS, OVER & OVER & OVER & OVER.
NOW TERROR BEGINS INSIDE A BLOODLESS VEIN, I WAS JUST A PRODUCT OF THE STREET YOUTH RAGE, BORN IN THIS WORLD WITHOUT A VOICE OR SAY, CAUGHT IN THE SPOKES WITH AN ABANDONED BRAIN.
I’VE FOUND COMFORT IN MY SUFFERING & UNCERTAINTY IN HAPPINESS AND DEATH, BECAUSE WHAT’S NEXT IS SUCH A MYSTERY TO ME, I AM TERRIFIED OF ALL THE THINGS I FEEL BUT CANNOT SEE.
And then I found out how hard it is to really change,
Even Hell can get comfy once you've settled in.
I just wanted the numb inside me to leave,
No matter how fucked you get, sorrow is there when you come back down.
Well, Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after.
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?
Do I divide and fall apart?
Do I sound mad? Well I guess I'm A little pissed. Every action has a point & five points make a fist, you close em', you swing em', it hurts when it hits. And the truth can be a bitch, but if the boot fits.
I've been searching for an exit,
But I'm lost inside my head
Where I spend every waking moment
Wishing this would end.
I can't take another step,
I cannot live inside my mind,
I can't face another day,
I am so fucking tired
For I am lost right now as the ocean deep.
time taught me how to see every second as heaven even though they're perfectly disguised as hell & I refuse to let past bruises cover the light, it ain't all good, but its all good enough, so I know I'm alright.
It's like loving a lion that cannot be tamed,
I snap at the thought or the sound of your name.
Pulling teeth from my stomach,
you've been eaten alive.
My blood fills your lungs,
my soul, you're inside.